What Came After

by: Kysen

Fri Aug 26, 2011 at 18:08:27 PM EDT



So, Hurricane Irene is headed our way. Virginia Beach appears to be in her direct path and we are preparing accordingly. As I have prepped these past few days, I have had another hurricane in my thoughts. More than the storm itself, it is the days and weeks that followed that have been in mind.


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Please indulge me a bit as I ramble below the fold.
Kysen :: What Came After
Hurricane Hugo hit Charleston in September of 1989. I had an apartment in the West Ashely part of town and had paid little heed to the incoming storm. It was not until the local newscaster practically screamed "Get Out Of Your Homes" at the camera that I took notice. It was far too late for me to make any preparations on my own, so I drove out to my folk's house on the island (one of the sea islands off of Charleston). I won't bother talkin' on the storm itself...it was a horrifying experience and we were lucky to come thru it fairly unscathed (uninjured, minimal damage to the house, one car destroyed by one of the 20 plus trees that were felled on their property). What I want to touch on briefly is what it was like AFTER the storm.

Hugo struck in the wee hours...and daylight brought to view an alien landscape. Nothing looked the same...and it never would again. The storm's winds snapped pine trees like toothpicks. Entire swaths of forest were mown down as though they were but sawgrass. The pines were hardly the only trees to succumb to the winds...stately oaks with a hundred plus years in their rings were brought down as well. Neighbor's homes were missing roofs...cars were smashed in driveways. Debris was strewn as far as the eye could see in every direction. It was eerily quiet that morning...it was the last time for weeks that it would be quiet during daylight hours. After that first morning, daylight was accompanied by the sounds of chainsaws, woodchippers, hammering, demolition, and clean-up. Gas powered generators could be heard day and night. There were dogs barking. Dogs actually were a bit of problem those first weeks...especially for bleeding hearts like those in my family. We fed 6-8 strays outdoors until they were 'found' or picked up by animal control. All roads on the island were blocked (or still underwater)..it was impossible to get anywhere other than on foot. That first day...all that could be done was to pull on work gloves, grab the chainsaws, and join the neighbors to begin clearing the roads.

The next night a tornado blew thru in the wake of the hurricane. In its way, it was more frightening that the Hurricane itself. It struck in the dark with no warning, catching everyone unawares. Some homes received more damage from the tornado than from Hugo. The skies were weird...the weather was weird...everything just felt 'off'.

I don't remember now how many days it took before access to Charleston was possible. In my mind it was WEEKS...in reality it was but a few days. We had no power, no water, no phone service (and this was before cell phones were a common possession). Even once the water was running again, it could only be used for showering. You could not drink it or cook with it because there were so many pine trees down in the reservoirs. It looked and smelled like turpentine. We had to stand on line daily for water...for ice. It was summer in the Lowcountry, hot as hell and thick with humidity, and the lines were long. At first, before the Government got there in full force, people were SELLING the water and ice at crazy prices. Same with generators...truckloads showed up early...300 dollar generators were being sold for 2-3 thousand or auctioned to the highest bidder. At that point in time there were no laws against price gouging. Because of Hugo, there now are (at least in SC). Immediately after the storm the looting began..it was not so bad on the island but North Charleston was hit rather hard. People sat on their porches with guns on their laps guarding their property...guarding their neighborhoods. The National Guard rolled in. Curfew was set. It was like living in another country.

I was 20 years old and had a habit that one does not feed in the light of day. The curfew was dawn to dusk and armed soldiers patrolled the streets. I became a 'stealth biker'...ducking and dodging local law and the National Guard...always alert for armed folks guarding that what was theirs. It still amazes me that it was easier to feed my habits than it was to get water/ice or 'freedom'. I guess I would liken it to how so many inmates become addicts IN prison even if they did not enter as one...that sort of thing always finds a way in.

Another thing that was exceedingly evident within the first few days...a lot of critters died. It reeked of death. There was no escaping it. The birds, snakes, squirrels, racoons, unfortunate outdoor pets, possums, you name it...critters died and then set to rot. To add to it were the fish and other water debris that got left behind when the storm surge retreated. It smelled of death for weeks. Inside. Outside. Did not matter where you were..you just sorta got used to it. Bees, wasps, hornets, yellowjackets were EVERYWHERE...all their nests had been disturbed and they were PISSED. Snakes were in places they usually weren't...and on the island 'snake' can mean something innocuous like a garter snake or rat snake...or it can mean rattlesnake, copperhead, or cottonmouth. Lots of cottonmouths.

For weeks, neighborhood streets were lined on both sides by a wall of debris 6ft tall (more in places). It was sorta like driving thru tunnels with openings for individual drive-ways. Even after power, phones, and water were restored...after roads were cleared and stores beginning to run normal hours again...it looked like a war zone. The clean-up took weeks..months. I did not stick around to see it through. I left the Lowcountry. Abandoned my apt still furnished (with a refrigerator full of rot). Just grabbed my personal items....some clothes....and left. It was the beginning of a very long rough stretch of my life...though, at the time, it was a relief. But, that, my friends...is a whole 'nother story.

So, I've spent the past couple days preppin' for Irene. Using lessons learned from Hugo to guide my actions. While Virginia Beach is smack in her path, I do not believe we will have near the disaster that Hugo wrought. Our home is on the Pungo Ridge...flooding is unlikely. We long ago had the pine trees that could have struck house or drive-way cleared from our property (I don't trust pine trees). We already own a small generator. I begin filling 2-liters with water at the beginning of every Hurricane season (using them to water plants/dogs at the end of the season) so, we already have plenty of drinking water stockpiled. Our cupboards are well stocked. All laundry is clean. All propane and unleaded gas tanks filled. Yard and exterior of house cleared of anything that might be picked up and launched by winds. Grass mowed extra short. All meds (for two-leggers AND four leggers) in supply. Fresh batteries in everything. Candles and flashlights in every room. Bucket in each bathroom to use pool water to flush (in case we lose water). The only habit I need to feed now requires a pair of running shoes (or blades)...so I am set there too. And, even though it has only been 20 years or so since Hugo struck, we are a more connected society. 'Help' will arrive more quickly...access via cell phones mean that everyone will be up to date/in the know...and the lessons learned from Hugo (and Andrew and Katrina) should benefit us.

Dunno why I am writing this. Is probably just as an outlet for stress relief. As I watch the news, read the blogs, and follow the Hurricane tracking charts...one thing has become quite clear to me.

The Hurricane itself does not scare me.

What can come after does.

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What Came After | 57 comments
Nothin' left but to hurry up and wait... (2.00 / 12)
I am expecting that we will be sans power come Saturday night. Depending on the damage/debris, we could be off anywhere from a few hours to a week or more.

I hope that all Moose along the Northeast Coast have prepared wisely. I hope all remain safe.
We have a couple of friends coming over to stay it out with us. Friends who are near and dear enough that if we are holed up for a week it will not drive us insane.  ;)

When my wife gets home from work tonight...we are going out to dinner...then to Home Depot for one last look thru (think I might buy a couple more tarps just in case). Our friends arrive tomorrow am...and then it is just wait and see.

On the political front, I hope Obama does this right. I hope that he proves himself a better leader than Bush when faced with a 'historic' storm. I'm glad he cut his vacation short, it is a good first sign that he will handle himself well as this natural disaster unfolds.

Prepare well and be safe, Moose.

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batten down the hatches, friend. (2.00 / 9)
i'll be worrying.  stay positive.  stay safe.



Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


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Hatches are battened... (2.00 / 7)
has been raining since last night....and we have had Tornado warnings in effect off and on since 2:30am....but, all signs are pointing to a much milder encounter with Irene than initially forecast.

We are all in good spirits...even the dogs seem more excited by the goings on than scared.

;)


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You will be in my thoughts. (2.00 / 9)
'cause sricki <3's Kysen.

Be safe.

Come to me in my dreams, and then
By day I shall be well again!
For so the night will more than pay
The hopeless longing of the day.


Awww...Kysen <3's sricki right back.... (2.00 / 6)
I promise ya that we are all safe. If I, at any point, felt this were not the case I'd load everyone up and get the heck outa Dodge.

As it stands now, they are projecting more water damage than wind damage to this area. Since our home is located on a natural ridge we are situated well above any potential flood zone. As such, I'm not so concerned about water problems. So long as the winds continue to weaken in strength as the storm moves our way, we ought be just fine.

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As a veteran of many hurricanes all I can say is... (2.00 / 10)
... stay safe bro.

You will be in my prayers.

Big hug and a lot of good vibes (and love) being sent your way. :~)

- Alejandro

Just because they are posting on a progressive site doesn't make them progressives. - John Allen


/grin (2.00 / 8)
Thanks, bro.

You and yours have been in my thoughts. Did you see my askin' on your family in the 'Repent' diary? I hope they all came through in good shape.

Were you home for the hurricane or are you still in DO?

You are missed round these parts.

Hope you and yours are well...wherever you are.

Prayers and hugs and good vibes and love all headed to you and yours from me and mine.



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spiff remains on secret mission in teh DR (2.00 / 7)


Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


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Amazing diary (2.00 / 7)
...the most evocative description of the post hurricane havoc I've ever read , not to mention the hints of an amazing personal narrative underneath.

I had to flee Hurricane Floyd ten years ago while on vacation on Hilton Head ten years ago. Amazing scenes of both lanes of the freeway travelling the same direction - west - with cars loaded up with everything, critters, furniture. The solidarity of people during a crisis. The humour. The panic. The selfishness. The selflessness.

Can't imagine a safer place to be though, than with you and your SO, during such a storm

The p***artist formerly known as 'Brit'


Thanks, Peter... (2.00 / 6)
You mention the solidarity of people during a crisis...it was certainly in abundance those first days and weeks. Yeah, there were looters...but, there were far more who pitched in wherever able to help anyone who needed it. After the storm I witnessed both the very best and the very worst of what people are capable of.

One friend is already here, arrived in time for breakfast...the other will be here shortly. Once she gets here we will all settle in for the day.

I will try to update once the storm has passed...hopefully we will have the power to do so (if we do lose power I hope it is not for long)


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Stay safe, dude. (2.00 / 6)
My thoughts are with you and everyone on the East Coast.

"When Fascism comes to America, it will come wrapped in teh stupid and waving a gun" ~ Esteev on Wonkette

Uh-ohhh (2.00 / 5)
I hit the Request Moderation button by mistake, instead of the Recommend button.

Sorry!


I don't trust pine trees (2.00 / 5)
I don't trust pine trees

I don't trust them, either.  My neighbors have huge ones, on both sides of my very long driveway.  The pines are infected with pine-bark beetles.  Many are dying.  They snap like toothpicks in strong winds.  If it were up to me, I would clear-cut all of them.  I'm tired of having to deal with them with the chain saw when they come down... especially during snow storms that bring heavy, wet snow.

So far, here in northern Maryland, we have had some rain, but no real winds yet.



I was in Greenville, SC for Hurricane Hug. (2.00 / 5)

You notice that the track shifts right in the middle of South Carolina, sparing Greenville and costing Charlotte, NC roofs instead.

I watched the eye come straight at us for hours then finally trend just north. During the whole evening Donna was at work at a government building built like a bunker (we agreed she was better off there). At the height of the storm a branch bigger around than my waist was torn out of an oak in the front yard.

And this was 200 miles inland.

PS - The formerly feared terrorist organization Al Qaeda's current former #2 person was killed Aug 22. The group's formerly feared former #1 person Opie Bin Laden died with his porn collection earlier this year.



"Conway, whom experience had taught that rudeness was by no means a guarantee of good faith, was even less inclined to regard a well-turned phrase as a proof of insincerity."  James Hilton, Lost Horizon


I hear it has been downgraded to a 'tropical storm.' (2.00 / 8)
More fear-mongering from the socialist jihadi in chief.  Just a pretext for another massive power grab by the federal government.

Rage rage against the dying of liberty's light.

The future is unwritten


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Well Rush seems to agree with you ;0) (2.00 / 7)
Rush Limbaugh said on his Monday show that President Obama was "hoping" that Hurricane Irene would be a "disaster."
Limbaugh firmly came down on the side of those who think that the media oversold the destructive power of Irene. He said that the storm was blown out of proportion to "push the leftist agenda," and tied it to what he said was Obama's desire to have a huge disaster.

"I'll guarantee you Obama was hoping this was going to be a disaster as another excuse for his failing economy," he said. "If he's out there blaming tsunamis, blaming earthquakes, this one [was] made to order, but it just didn't measure up."

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/...

" In the choice between changing ones mind and proving there's no need to do so, most people get busy on the proof. "


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Yeah (2.00 / 5)
Sometimes the line between conspiracy theory and political perspective gets blurry.  Sometimes it's etched as clearly as a prairie horizon.  Sometimes the paranoia seems genuine.  Sometimes it's cynical bullshit.

Both are dangerous.  Both strangle the public sphere.

But the important thing in this context is that we reflect upon our widespread and aggressive disrespect for traditional religion.

The future is unwritten


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I Hear That... (2.00 / 5)
Our "our widespread and aggressive disrespect for traditional religion."  A stabilising influence; can't help but note the second-tier voice of bishops, rabbis and imams who incessantly dissent from war, racism, selfishness and austerity which is largely ignored in the media scrum.

Any thoughts on the recent events in India regarding the anti-corruption activism of Anna Hazare?:


A septuagenarian anticorruption activist ended his 13-day hunger strike Sunday with a glass of coconut water to the cheers of supporters and the relief of a government that has found itself on the defensive for the past two weeks.

Anna Hazare agreed to end the fast after Parliament bowed to his demands, agreeing to create a powerful, independent lokpal, or ombudsman, with authority to go after high-level corruption.

Mark Magnier - India anticorruption activist ends hunger strike LAT via San Francisco Chronicle 28 Aug 11

He's a Gandhian if I ever clapped eyes on one, seems a victory for that tradition of Hindu thought and action.  Though apparently the Dalai Lama is "retiring" from politics.
 


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Hey gang... (2.00 / 10)
we just got power back...we are tired, hot, sticky, and praising the pure genius of Mr. Willis Haviland Carrier.

We lost power at the very tail end of the storm's stay here in VA...probably because we too early bragged on NOT having lost power.  ;)

Lots and lots and lots of rain...our backyard was a lake, the sheet of water stretched from one fenceline to the other (including straight over the pool). We lost one Leyland Cypress (tipped right over, root ball torn right up from the ground) and LOTS of limbs/branches from the rest of the trees on the property.

No damage to home or vehicles (or, most importantly, to the people ridin' out the storm here).

Va Bch got lucky, again. I see it as a blessing and a curse. My reasons for seeing it as a blessing are obvious. My reason for seeing it as a curse is that it feeds the level of complacency/nonchalance (and general lack of respect) for Hurricanes that this area suffers from. Next time a monster storm is blowin' our way...far too many people will shrug it off with "yeah, yeah, yeah...remember Irene? I'm not gonna worry about it".

One of these days this area is gonna get rocked and it ain't gonna be pretty. It is only a matter of when.

Hope that everyone is well (Spiff? Happy? Denise? DTO? Who are the other Moose who were in Irene's path?).

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Reason 1 why people stay when told repeatedly to leave. (2.00 / 10)
My reason for seeing it as a curse is that it feeds the level of complacency/nonchalance (and general lack of respect) for Hurricanes that this area suffers from. Next time a monster storm is blowin' our way...far too many people will shrug it off with "yeah, yeah, yeah...remember Irene? I'm not gonna worry about it".

Left for Ivan ~ a miserable trip to Shreveport that took twice as long as it normally would because everyone else left, too.  Got back to find out he had made a turn to the East.

Didn't leave for Dennis the following year but boarded up the east-facing side of the house.  Got nothing, nada, not a puff of wind.

Didn't leave for Katrina but boarded up all the windows and doors.

Got the Hell out of dodge a year and a half later.  Can't take the uncertainty.

Very glad you are safe if a bit stinky.  :)  Have fun cleaning that pool.  :)

"When Fascism comes to America, it will come wrapped in teh stupid and waving a gun" ~ Esteev on Wonkette


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Things are still pretty bad here in Ulster county NY (2.00 / 9)
lots of big trees and power lines down - many in the roadways.  We've had major flooding in many townships.  My full power and cable are now back on. I have water that leaked into storm cellar and only two big trees down that didn't fall onto anything so I am very lucky.

My school (SUNY New Paltz) never closes - but it was closed yesterday and today - got text messages from emergency campus system all throughout the storm - the whole town was a mess (flooding and power lines down)and even campus police had no phones.  At least the students on campus have a place to eat.  

I can't drive anywhere because there are still big downed trees blocking my roadway.

If this had been more than a Cat 1 we would be even worse off so I am grateful to be alive and communicating.  

The flood damage has been pretty severe here since most of the rivers and streams that feed the Hudson River have gone way beyond their banks.

Just heard from friends in Woodstock - they took major damage.



"If you're in a coalition and you're comfortable, you know it's not a broad enough coalition"

Bernice Johnson Reagon


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glad your safe, at least. (2.00 / 7)
my hope is that some good will come of the whole thing.  putting people to work setting things right again and preparing for future events.

(((((DV))))))

Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


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Brooklyn and Queens are springing back to life (2.00 / 7)
some trees down, power lines down, a small tornado in Queens, but we're used to them now lol

It was an event.  


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Glad to Hear From You... (2.00 / 4)
My brother in Seaford lost his Lexus SUV forever but all humans accounted for.  Guessing news directors were pretty busy.  So was Irene worth the precautions?  Seems so.

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I'd say so (2.00 / 5)
jaded New Yorkers may squawk at it, but down along the shore, a lot of people are happy they left.  

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any Shel Silverstein fans? (2.00 / 4)
andrew bird has made a lovely song of his Twistable Turnable Man, and it's been in my head the last few days.  must exorcise on moose:

He's the Twistable Turnable Squeezable Pullable
Stretchable Foldable Man.
He can crawl in your pocket or fit your locket
Or screw himself into a twenty-volt socket,
Or stretch himself up to the steeple or taller,
Or squeeze himself into a thimble or smaller,
Yes he can, course he can,
He's the Twistable Turnable Squeezable Pullable
Stretchable Shrinkable Man.
And he lives a passable life
With his Squeezable Lovable Kissable Hugable
Pullable Tugable Wife.
And they have two twistable kids
Who bend up the way that they did.
And they turn and they stretch
Just as much as they can
For this Bendable Foldable
Do-what-you're-toldable
Easily moldable
Buy-what you're-soldable
Washable Mendable
Highly Dependable
Buyable Saleable
Always available
Bounceable Shakeable
Almost unbreakable
Twistable Turnable Man.


Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


so, i'm wondering (2.00 / 3)
if god called on both bachmann and perry to run for POTUS, isn't the big guy lying to one of them?  god must really dislike mitt romney, eh?

Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


Secret Handshake... (2.00 / 4)
To be in on the Romney divine calling.  So God must be fallible.  After a decade of pretending Bush was a Texan they got a real one and by all accounts he's got the keys to the car.  Recent polling shows a party in crisis.

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God works in mysterious ways. (2.00 / 4)
Maybe it's to keep either one from winning. If only one entered the race then they'd get all of the TP vote. This way, they split it. All according to God's plan.

This is not a recession. It's a robbery.

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Stop mocking religion, it's so intolerant (2.00 / 5)


The future is unwritten

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heh. pleasant by comparison. (2.00 / 3)
"The God of the Old Testament is arguably the most unpleasant character in all fiction: jealous and proud of it; a petty, unjust, unforgiving control-freak; a vindictive, bloodthirsty ethnic cleanser; a misogynistic, homophobic, racist, infanticidal, genocidal, filicidal, pestilential, megalomaniacal, sadomasochistic, capriciously malevolent bully."

- Richard Dawkins



Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


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What Dawkins fails to do... (2.00 / 3)
....is compare God with his social peers: Mammon, Baal, Jove, etc.

True, the dude had issues. But some of those other gods, jeez. Wouldn't want them in my testament.

BTW: I'm loving Season 4 of Breaking Bad BTW. Just doesn't relent. Smart story telling, believable characters, and button-clenchingly unpredictable  

The p***artist formerly known as 'Brit'


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for realz (2.00 / 3)
best show in a long time.

Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


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I actually disagree with Dawkins (2.00 / 6)
on a lot of his polemicizing.  He doesn't understand much about Biblical literature or theology, but holds forth as if he's steeped in it.  Most of his critiques are pretty facile and cheap.  

But he's right on evolution.  Many, perhaps most religious people respect science.

But I posted this as I think it shows how silly it is to accuse the left of mocking religion in intolerant ways when those on the left are viewed and treated by this manner by those on the right.

The religious right isn't respected, but everyone agrees that a sincere athiest is unelectable to the highest office.

How does that work again?

Oh.  And it's Dr. Strum now, thank you very much.  The defense this afternoon went swimmingly.  My committee was generous and enthusiastic.  Very festive.

The future is unwritten


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Did someone get a Phd? (2.00 / 5)
Or another one...?

"Conway, whom experience had taught that rudeness was by no means a guarantee of good faith, was even less inclined to regard a well-turned phrase as a proof of insincerity."  James Hilton, Lost Horizon

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Defended my dissertation this afternoon (2.00 / 7)
I'd be out celebrating, but I teach my first class of the semester tomorrow at 8 AM.

Party is tomorrow night.

The future is unwritten


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w00t! party delivery: (2.00 / 6)


Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


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That (2.00 / 5)
was

AWESOME!!!

Thanks fogiv.

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Dr Strummerson.... (2.00 / 5)
...has a good ring to it.

But can I call you Dr Feelgood from now on? Even better ring.  

The p***artist formerly known as 'Brit'


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Dr. Fielenguttstein (2.00 / 6)
will be appropriate.

Thanks Peter.

I am now licensed to prescribe you 4 lines of Coleridge and 2 Acts of King Lear.

The latter is a precautionary (dare I type 'prophylactic') measure to make sure you never retire.  Ever.

The future is unwritten


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Congratulations, Doctor. (2.00 / 6)
:~)

"Conway, whom experience had taught that rudeness was by no means a guarantee of good faith, was even less inclined to regard a well-turned phrase as a proof of insincerity."  James Hilton, Lost Horizon

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Thanks Chris (2.00 / 6)
I think the appropriate treatment for you would be a full-throated reading of Shelley's "Ode to the West Wind."

I

O WILD West Wind, thou breath of Autumn's being
 Thou from whose unseen presence the leaves dead
Are driven like ghosts from an enchanter fleeing,

 Yellow, and black, and pale, and hectic red,
Pestilence-stricken multitudes! O thou         5
 Who chariotest to their dark wintry bed

The wingèd seeds, where they lie cold and low,
 Each like a corpse within its grave, until
Thine azure sister of the Spring shall blow

 Her clarion o'er the dreaming earth, and fill  10
(Driving sweet buds like flocks to feed in air)
 With living hues and odours plain and hill;

Wild Spirit, which art moving everywhere;
Destroyer and preserver; hear, O hear!

II

Thou on whose stream, 'mid the steep sky's commotion,  15
 Loose clouds like earth's decaying leaves are shed,
Shook from the tangled boughs of heaven and ocean,

 Angels of rain and lightning! there are spread
On the blue surface of thine airy surge,
 Like the bright hair uplifted from the head  20

Of some fierce Mænad, even from the dim verge
 Of the horizon to the zenith's height,
The locks of the approaching storm. Thou dirge

 Of the dying year, to which this closing night
Will be the dome of a vast sepulchre,  25
 Vaulted with all thy congregated might

Of vapours, from whose solid atmosphere
Black rain, and fire, and hail, will burst: O hear!

III

Thou who didst waken from his summer dreams
 The blue Mediterranean, where he lay,  30
Lull'd by the coil of his crystàlline streams,

 Beside a pumice isle in Baiæ's bay,
And saw in sleep old palaces and towers
 Quivering within the wave's intenser day,

All overgrown with azure moss, and flowers  35
 So sweet, the sense faints picturing them! Thou
For whose path the Atlantic's level powers

 Cleave themselves into chasms, while far below
The sea-blooms and the oozy woods which wear
 The sapless foliage of the ocean, know  40

Thy voice, and suddenly grow gray with fear,
And tremble and despoil themselves: O hear!

IV

If I were a dead leaf thou mightest bear;
 If I were a swift cloud to fly with thee;
A wave to pant beneath thy power, and share  45

 The impulse of thy strength, only less free
Than thou, O uncontrollable! if even
 I were as in my boyhood, and could be

The comrade of thy wanderings over heaven,
 As then, when to outstrip thy skiey speed  50
Scarce seem'd a vision-I would ne'er have striven

 As thus with thee in prayer in my sore need.
O! lift me as a wave, a leaf, a cloud!
 I fall upon the thorns of life! I bleed!

A heavy weight of hours has chain'd and bow'd  55
One too like thee-tameless, and swift, and proud.

V

Make me thy lyre, even as the forest is:
 What if my leaves are falling like its own?
The tumult of thy mighty harmonies

 Will take from both a deep autumnal tone,  60
Sweet though in sadness. Be thou, Spirit fierce,
 My spirit! Be thou me, impetuous one!

Drive my dead thoughts over the universe,
 Like wither'd leaves, to quicken a new birth;
And, by the incantation of this verse,  65

 Scatter, as from an unextinguish'd hearth
Ashes and sparks, my words among mankind!
 Be through my lips to unawaken'd earth

The trumpet of a prophecy! O Wind,
If Winter comes, can Spring be far behind?  70



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Congratulations Doc... (2.00 / 6)
You are now qualified to do a season of Doctor Who.

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Thanks Shaun (2.00 / 6)
I'll keep my eye out for a call box.

The future is unwritten

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I'd like to add my congratulations (2.00 / 6)


This is not a recession. It's a robbery.

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Thanks John. n/t (2.00 / 6)


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ot (2.00 / 7)
on the way home from work, stopped at an intersection, i noticed a man and young boy waiting for the light to change.  the man was probably late 40s/early 50s, missing a great many teeth, and dirty.  the boy was maybe 5 or 6, but hard to tell -- so small and so thin. clothes dirty and ill fitting. he had a sort of blocky choppiness to his hair, as if haircuts were performed by knife, rather than scissors. they were obviously homeless.  the man -- haggard, weary, and wary -- held carefully onto a leash he had fastened to a doll-sized, dirty backpack the boy wore.

i only made it about a block before i started to cry.  i am still deeply shaken. i don't even know why i am writing this down.  sometimes i don't even know what to think.

Earth is the best vacation place for advanced clowns. --Gary Busey
 


"ye have the poor with you always" (2.00 / 7)
I'd like to write something comforting and compassionate while leaving politics out of it, but this is tied directly to politics. The safety net is stretched thin and liberals are fighting to keep it from being destroyed. Scenes like this will become more common if we lose that fight.

This is not a recession. It's a robbery.

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And Then... (2.00 / 7)
Torchlight and pitchforks on the nearest barely credible "threats" to our security and prosperity, reasoning optional.

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Heh, I feel ya. Big time. (2.00 / 7)
I've been working with kids for the past month. The services I provide... are through Medicaid. These kids aren't homeless, but some of them are really bad off. One of the homes I went into -- my first case (met them July 28) and still my roughest... I felt like I'd walked into a third world country when I pulled up at their house. To a privileged asshole like me -- who, until recently, always took that privilege for granted -- it was almost inconceivable that people in this country still live like that.

The kids I work with range in age from 5 to 19... most have been sexually abused, some of them by multiple people, some by both men and women. Some of them were physically abused and all of them emotionally abused. Some have already lived in more places and with more people than I have, despite being so young. All of my current cases are DHR referred -- that's the Department of Human Resources (the people who, here in AL, take your kids from you when you fuck them the hell up). I am not working in a school at the moment... I'm going into homes. Most of my kids aren't in their parents' custody. All of my kids have probably suffered more -- in their more than 5 or less than 20 years -- than I have in my 26, despite my own mental/emotional issues.

There is no feeling in the world like looking into a 7-year-old child's face... as she tries to tell you about the man who molested her... watching her little face turn pink... hearing her breath leave her and her voice strain and her words jumble into near incoherence as she attempts to describe something horrible that she still can't understand... can't process... can't express... Or a little 8-year-old boy try to tell you about the older brother who raped him, and the dreams he still has.

When you're there... seeing and living that experience... you keep your face sympathetic but neutral -- because that's what you've been trained for years to do. And you comfort the child in an "appropriate" verbal way, when all you really want to do is wrap your arms around him/her and cry and squeeze so...so fucking tight. You keep it together, though, because that's your job. Your face betrays nothing of what you feel.

But then you go home... and the kids enter your dreams as you rest. They invade your thoughts at near every waking moment, and you can't leave them in their homes -- because one or the other of them is always in your mind. And late in the night in the presence of loved ones you lose it and sob and feel your heart breaking into a thousand pieces... for everything they've been through, and for all the affection you can never really show them.

I hate my job, I love my job, I hate my job. My job breaks my heart almost every day. The kids break my heart. It's odd, 'cause I always thought I hated kids... heh, turns out I absolutely adore them, and they love me. I love them more than I should, from a "professional" standpoint, though they'll never know it. Most of them will probably forget me eventually, but they are all... their cases are all... burned into my brain and carved into my heart.

In a month... I've learned more about people and the real world than perhaps I ever wanted to know. I thought I was jaded, disillusioned, and "worldly" already, but I had no idea. Perhaps the best thing I've gotten out of my job is a genuine love of children. And perhaps the best thing the kids have gotten out of me is a therapist who makes 'em laugh. The younger ones... it's amazing -- despite the trials they've been through, they're still so innocent. They're so real and raw and human and good. And jesus have they suffered... and some will go on suffering... because there's no good, loving, safe place for them to go.

Sorry for the ramble. Your comment touched me, though, because I understand that level of empathy for others. Maybe I have only truly come to understand it recently. It was different during my internship -- when I was working with adults and when they were my supervisor's responsibility. Kids are different... clients who are "mine" are different... This job is kind of like... well, like being at the pound, for me. I never go to the pound 'cause I end up wanting to take all the animals home. Well, it's the same with the kids. But of course, taking them home is not an option.

But they are with me anyway... Maybe in time I'll learn to "put them aside," but it's a fine line between caring enough to reach them... and caring too much.

Heh, and now that I'm in tears again, I'll shaddup.

But. Yeah. Sricki feels ya. <3

Come to me in my dreams, and then
By day I shall be well again!
For so the night will more than pay
The hopeless longing of the day.


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So sad... (2.00 / 6)
Humans are capable of such amazing feats of altruism and, at the same time, capable of such horrifying cruelty. We sure are a mixed up species. And, most of us are just as mixed up as the species is as a whole.

This is not a recession. It's a robbery.

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Oh, sricki mine. (2.00 / 6)
You are a great soul.

My mother did that job for many years in Florida. I would ask how she handles it, and we would talk about it. There isn't a short answer.

The key, I think, is just to keep in mind that you are the Bright Light in these children's lives. Don't focus on the darkness that they live in when you are gone, focus on the light they experience when you are there. Think forward to seeing the ones you have helped later, for some of them that light will have led them out of their darkness altogether.

You can stand doing it because the payoff is so high. Just one of those children who you can give a hand out of their hell to is more of an accomplishment than me getting a bunch of bureaucrats to agree or Peter writing a better novel.

Be well, and care for that light of yours.

"Conway, whom experience had taught that rudeness was by no means a guarantee of good faith, was even less inclined to regard a well-turned phrase as a proof of insincerity."  James Hilton, Lost Horizon


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How strange is that... (2.00 / 6)
My mother was a child social worker (that's how she met my kid brother) and then a psychiatric social worker. Is there some thread here on the Moose?

And agreed on the relative job importance. I'm just a troubadour or juggler, entertaining people a little, before they get back to the real work.  

The p***artist formerly known as 'Brit'


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My goodness sricki (2.00 / 7)
What an amazing job to be doing: how great for those kids they  have some access to kindness and normality through you. I can't imagine how important this is... But also how much pressure it puts on you.

I hope you also have counsellors to counsel you too through this. You're taking on so much pain. You don't have to do that alone.

Lots of love

The p***artist formerly known as 'Brit'


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You are a good man. (2.00 / 6)
You were supposed to cry. Sometimes you are supposed to stop and take them home and feed them. Sometimes you are supposed to intervene in their lives.

Sometimes you are supposed to look away.

There is only so much one person can take in a given quantum of time. Your value is not measured by whether you try to save everyone you see, but by whether you try to save people when you can.

I wrote earlier about how our future ability to manage information will transform the world in known and unknown ways. Similarly, our ability to address suffering will - I believe - increase on a similar (though shallower) slope.

But John and the rest of our liberal wing are correct, too. We can do more and we can do better and we can do some of that now. The net result of the poor decisions by those with power beyond our direct control have cause more families who could have just afforded the haircuts to resort to scissors, and more who would have at least had scissors to use a knife.

I almost got on the radio with Robert Reich today (damn windbag caller before me! ;~). I wanted to discuss the impact of psychology on the economy, specifically the Droning of Doom practiced by the current representatives of the Right. This Just Say No, bring on the tears, Toll The Bell choice that the GOP has made has caused many families to adopt the lives that broke your heart today. Real people are hurt in real ways because there are those traitors who are willing to inflict that suffering for some utopian End.

You are just a good person. That's the problem you have. :~)

"Conway, whom experience had taught that rudeness was by no means a guarantee of good faith, was even less inclined to regard a well-turned phrase as a proof of insincerity."  James Hilton, Lost Horizon


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Heh... (2.00 / 7)
You are just a good person. That's the problem you have. :~)

Would that we all, to a one, had such a problem.

Unfortunately, for one reason or another, be it nature or nurture...lots of people just plain suck.

That's what makes the really good eggs (like Fog) stand out.

We wouldn't make such a big deal about heroes...such a fuss over someone doing a good and kind thing...if everyone were heroic and good and kind.

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We lost power at 12:45 A.M. on Sunday (2.00 / 4)
and got it back at 8:30 A.M. on Tuesday morning.  Our utility, Baltimore Gas & Electric, did a good job, considering the magnitude of the devastation.  At the peak, about 500,000 people in the utility's service area were without power.  BG&E's nuclear plant at Calvert Cliffs, Maryland, on the Chesapeake Bay, shut down when a piece of aluminum siding blew off of a house and shorted out a transformer.

Our land-line telephone (from Verizon) kept a dial tone throughout.

Cable television and Internet access was another story.  They came back for about an hour on Friday afternoon, and then went out again.  They came back for good on Saturday afternoon.  So, it was a week without the Internets.  It was Comcastic!

We had a lot of oak leaves and branches come down, and two dead pines snapped in half over near the property line.  They are offspring of pines on the property of one of my neighbors (neighbor A).  Neighbor A lost 25 trees.  His trees, nearly all big pines, have a serious problem with pine-bark beetles.  Two if his came down across my driveway.  Happily, he got to them with his chain saw before I got down there.

Neighbor A relies on Comcast for cable television, Internet access, and telephone service.  So, his telephone was out for practically an entire week, along with the television and Internet service.

I did have to take down another neighbor's (B's) tree, on the other side of the driveway, that was leaning across, tent-poled onto one of Neighbor A's pines.  The hickory's root system could not support the tree, which had been growing at an angle, reaching for the light, after the ground got saturated.

Neighbor B is elderly, and though fit, the hickory was a bit more than I wanted him to have to deal with.

This past week, we lost power again, for five hours, due to trees coming down after the ground again got saturated with 12 inches of rain from the remnants of Tropical Storm Lee.

The stream that runs through our property was carrying an enormous amount of Lee water... even more than during Irene.  The water level is still much higher than it normally is.

We take modern conveniences like electricity and Internet access for granted, until we don't have them.


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